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I know...

"i know"

I know you think i am so weird.
most things i do may disgust you.
you feel i am not confident.
i know friend. yes, i know.

i know you sleep at night with fear.
you think i may not really care.
when all seems lost and darkness falls.
i know dearest... i know.

i know you think i am quicksand.
loveable, hard to understand.
timid and shy. stupid and bland.
i know dear friend, i know.

i know sometimes, i dissapoint.
and tend towards a breaking point
of frustration and denial.
i know dearest i know.

i know how you treat me with scorn.
say things about me that will burn
my heart and make me feel so torn.
i know dearest. i know.

i know you do not know i know.
all these and more, but i let go.
to live a simple life of peace.
i know dear friend. i know.

(c) Danny El

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